friends and challenge x

hey guys
so yeah today just gonna say stuffs about friendship yeah

i thought i was important  , i always thought that i was the one my best friend need , i always thought that she was my best friend who will be there for me when I'm down .
i thought , i THOUGHT …
i treated her like a someone who is important , but she doesn't . she treats me worse than a dog .
its like after holiday , I'm totally nothing to her anymore , before holiday we were so close , everything were so good , but ever since she met others things changes.

i am so so so surprised , how you treat it like u didn't change at all when you clearly did , and how you didnt care and make it so easy ,

how i wish , nobody will replaces me , but apparently , this is life …

whats more hurtful is that your always last seen , or either super late replies , like few hours later 

no no its okay you know , its okay 

im so surprised , how someone you met for just 2 months can replace this friendship so quickly , i miss everything about us … why am i a fool holding on here . hoping there would be miracle when no miracle would happen , so hard to give up on a friendship , so confused in where i am now , should i trust her and believe she would change to a better person ?instead of scolding vulgars words every single day . 

or should i just give up and move on . 

i really don't want to find a friend , and go through the cycle of trusting the person , and have happy and sad times with a person again , so tiring… 

so confuse in this situation what  i just want is 

this is so amazing . 

the perfect friend . 

ok so the challenge 

- two emotions that describe your life right now 

1) feeling replaced and sad yeah . 

2) feeling happy because i actually got in music school and i know my family will always be there x 

so yeah basically its just a mixed feeling hahah . 

thanks for dropping by loves , see you x 

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